Bam Bam Biram Bam, Bam Bam Birambam, Disturbia. Ayan daw ang ost ng twilight. napaisip? Joke lang yan. Kantahin mo.
Naalala ko lang yan. jinoke ko 1 time last year’s summit kina jessica, kkb agoncillo(wow naalala ko pa?)
Ilang beses ko na kase nilagay sa notepad ng utak ko na kelangan ko isulat ung personal testimony ko. So eto na nga.Dati kase may pag ka disturbia ako. Disturbed. Siguro I was searching for my purpose in life. Although I always excel in school, I get perfect scores, I get a lot of Ecca points n higschool, pero I was disturbed. Sometimes I cry in my room. Nag eemo. And when I entered college, my image was starting to change into an emo, well semi-emo, in terms of the music i hear, the clothes I wear, the words I use and the journals I write. I was always so emotional. I was too sensitive, I easily get hurt emotionally. I have a very high tolerance with physical pain, but I’m very weak inside.
I started to attend born again church in my first year high school. I remember the first few Sundays I attended in our local church, I was always bored, the preaching was so long I usually fall asleep. I was used in the Catholic one-hour -mass and just standing and hearing what the priest is saying and responding memorized lines. I wasn’t used in singing those songs I didn’t know with matching clapping and dancing.
Bata pa lang ako, nag kakainterest na ko magbasa ng Bible, may naririning na ko na challenge na matapos ung Bible ng book to book. Bata pa lang ako non. Pero palage pa rin akong ningas kugon. Hanggang umpisa lang. Moving on. So nung nagchuchurch na nga ako, eventually na-engage din ako sa church activities. Kumbaga nakasanayan ko na na dun aatend ng Sunday service. Palage nag iinvite ung mga leaders ng Youth samen. Umaatend naman ako paminsan minsan. Naalala ko nag tambourine pa nga ako nung anniversary. haha.
Dumating sa point na I was already applying the teachings from the church in school. Like for example, nacite ko 1 time nung nagrerecite ako ung teachings sa church(about love and relationship pa nga ata un) haha. Basta meron pa ko classmate non na Christian din and nakakapgshare-an kame.
And I could probably associate the mindset that I have in accepting leadership positions ever since highschool because of how I have imbibed in my mind ung teaching na, “Imagine if government leaders and officials are Christians.” Specially on the agencies of the governement were corruption is very chronic. Naisip ko pa before na maybe paglaki ko tatakbo ako as Mayor or Governor. Naisip ko pa nga maging Presidente ng Pilipinas. Pati ung teaching ni Cong nung 1st Region IV Regional Summit na pinayagan kame ng parents namen na sumama kase sa Lemery lang sya ginanap(katabing bayan lang). Di ko talaga nakalimutan ever since ung line na “Make a Difference.”
Pero nung nagcollege, bihira na ko nakakauwe ng Batangas. At mas bihira pa sa pag uwe ko ang pagpunta sa church. In short, wala kame inaatendan kapag Sunday. Ung mga bilang na bilang na pag atend ko ng service nung first year to second year ko, palage ako umiiyak. Syempre sa sarili ko lang. Possibly namimiss ko ung church, but more importantly, I’m losing my communication with my Master. Yun na nga ung time na nagiging emo na ko. And then dumating si Dom, ung kapatid namin. Nung nagfirst year college sya, super narevive kame. Sya ung nagdala samen sa YC.(Youth Center). Through also sa kachurch namen sa community na nag invite naman kay Dom. Nalaman namin ung Youth Rage and JIL Greenhills and JIL PUP. Hindi naman kase talaga alam.
To cut the story short, we all had new beginnings. Fresh new start. Para akong naborn again ulet! I was so hungy for spiritual food. Ilang years ako nagstarve. And I met a lot of young people who have a passion for Christ. And the change in our lives started to become transpire. Once you accept Christ in your life, you are a new creation. And you don’t have to change your life, your life eventually walks its way based on what’s on your heart. Nag umpisa sa 30th Anniversary ng JIL sa Luneta, Youth Summit 2008, nag undergo ng JIL12, nag encounter retreat, pag atend atend sa YC at Youth Gig, dumating ang KKB CSB hanggang sa nainvolve sa ministry.
And here I am. Although still not perfect and never will be.. but God changed many aspects of my life, I’m not anymore living a melancholic life on the other side and achieving all these successes to satisfy myself on the other but I’m giving my best in everything I do to glorify Him. Here, I have decided to offer my life to Him.
And I am a KKB. Kristiyanong Kabataan para sa Bayan living to inspire the youth to live for Christ and offer the prime years of their lives in service of God and of country.
